Hi my sweetheart friends!
I am many things. We all are. But most of all I am a free spirit.
I tried to tame my self. I accepted letting others try to tame me, some doing it with good intentions, others not.
I nearly lost my self. My creativity stopped flowing. I stopped laughing. My soul was hurting. I was eroding, leaving bits of me behind.
You know who did that? Me.
I allowed it.
I accepted that I was not good enough. I so tried to avoid hurting others that I forgot to stand up for my self. I changed who I am. I went under cover.
And then I finally blew my cover and came out. Blazing.
It is not easy being my partner. You get a lot of woman. I am sensitive, warm, present, loving. I am also fiercly indepedent. A deep thinker. Passionate. Complicated. Always seeking personal growth. Always moving forward.
Commitment? Yes. Control? No.
Love? Yes.
“I got my own roots to water. Got my own way of praying. My very own way to sing. Still, I am connected to you. And everyone. And everything.
Got my own truth to live. Got my own star to follow. My own rivers to cross. In my own time.
Still, I am connected to you. And everyone. And everything. “
I have found my wings. Don`t ask me to fold them away. Take a leap and fly with me instead!
It is so beautiful from up here.
Tell me sweethearts, how do you stay true to the core of who you are?
I would love to connect with you!
anikack@gmail.com @AnikaByAnika Facebook
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Wonderful! You are therapy to this therapist!
So inspiring! To answer your question I’m just now finding my voice and my blog has helped me tremendously.
xx
Maya
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September 1, 2011 at 5:47 pm
This is terrific, Anika! Inspiring as always. I especially love this: “Commitment? Yes. Control? No.” SO INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT! Keep on being the exciting, amazing, thrilling person that you are, and find someone who supports you being every bit of yourself.
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September 1, 2011 at 5:57 pm
Your posts always inspire me girl! Love it! I lived a lot of my life according to what other people thought that I should be living it. Most of them had good intentions but in the end, I was the one who wasn’t happy.
When it comes to staying to the core of who I really am, I try to live by this motto everyday: Have the courage to make yourself happy. Attaining true happiness can be really scary sometimes so I know that if I push through that fear one step at a time, I know that my happiness is right behind it!
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September 1, 2011 at 6:23 pm
You are amazing lady! Every young girl should have to read this post!
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I wont comment on your free soirit because I can feel it, and know.
love the new face of your blog. When did you move away from Blogger???
Did you do it on your own?
Mil besos.
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
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This is so beautiful my dear. I needed this post. With the end of my relay, I have discovered I lost myself. I don’t know when I started doing it. I need to discover who I am and be the free spirit that I am. I also have discovered that I need to learn to be independent and keep my free spirited personality. I need to rediscover me and rebuild my life. Then, maybe in the future I can find someone who supports and tends to my free spirited self, not someone who hinders it and makes me feel bad about myself. You are so inspiring my dear, you remind me to be me!
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September 2, 2011 at 7:10 am
Sometimes I feel like an incredible failure and it’s hard to love myself. Other times, I am proud of who I have become and how far I have gone. It’s a bipolar relationship but I’m working at it. Thanks for the encouragement.
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September 2, 2011 at 3:02 pm
You always give the best advice. I lost myself for a little but I’m glad to say that I’m coming back. Being true to yourself is the hardest obstacle in this world.
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This is fabulous. Sometimes we are attracted to people who are not good for us and sometimes it takes a long time to admit that and break free of them. Sometimes when we’ve been through stuff we pick people subconsciously because they remind us of the people who hurt us in the past. It’s all part of the process and once we heal from those hurts, we start to pick people who want what is good for us. I’m in that process now
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always an inspiration! I just LOVE your positive vibe! Makes me want to run outside in my underwear and shout, “THIS IS WHO I AM!!!!!” Love you for this
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Love love love this!!!…. You are an amazing woman… love ya xxx
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September 3, 2011 at 4:33 am
You know what I tell men who think the grass is greener on the other side with a mistress or a new lover? WE’RE ALL COMPLICATED. WE’RE ALL DEMANDING. Eventually, after the hormones wear off, men learn that what they thought was different, is really the same, just in a different body. Women are complicated, emotional, nurturing, fierce, difficult. The sooner men learn this truth, the better off we’ll all be. Men cannot be changed, and neither can women. We just need to find the right partner, then love them for their strengths, because the idiosyncrasies associated with gender cannot be re-written.
Lord have mercy, this is too deep. I love you! Can’t wait to see you next week, my darling Anika!
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September 8, 2011 at 3:07 am
It’s so great that you’ve found your wings! I recently put up a picture on my wall where I drew “Live Colourfully” – it reminds me to always be my fun, vibrant self
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- Laura S
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September 12, 2011 at 3:48 pm
Oh friend! I miss you! It’s funny that we were sitting on my couch last week just talking about this stuff and now you are an ocean away and it’s like you’re on my couch again. I think what you wrote about acknowledging that you let these things happen is a wonderful acceptance of responsibility. Once you accept that you let those things happen you can also say that you’ll never let those things happen again and that gives you power. I think I stay true to my core by learning to let things go. I have a tendency to want to be everything and put a lot of pressure on myself and then of course I feel like I am terrible for not doing everything. I’m constantly reminding myself there is only so much I can do.
ALSO! I logged onto wp.com today and this blog was on the dashboard:http://mikeslagter.wordpress.com/2011/09/08/norway/ and I thought baaaahhhh Anika!!!
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hey, i am happy to inform u that i am reading ur blogg and as u know, that i know that you are as independent as the wind, will i urge u to keep ur head up high as u have always done n you will definitely be fine<3
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